Basically this "have to" takes the fun things and puts them on a list of chores. Totally taking away the get to idea. I get to relax by the pool. I get to see my friends and hang out with my parents. I get to go out to eat. I get to kayak and run. These are privileges - things I enjoy! but I find myself putting them on the have to list and rushing to check them off instead of savoring the moments I'm doing them. I'm always looking to get to the next have to, inventing them if necessary. Does checking them off make me a more accomplished person? Is seeing a list of todo's completed more satisfying than spending a day enjoying what I do? The more things I check off, the faster I qualify for the next stage and the next day and the next to-do list. Hmmm... not sure I want to get there.
Being. Much better than doing. Being is all that's required.