What is it?

So since I've moved here, I've felt a little out of touch. I feel like there's something right outside my grasp that is so important for me to get. I can feel my mind and my heart distracting me from this, but I can't make the break through. I feel like God is yelling something at me and I'm just saying do you hear something? Then there's the feeling that I have to do more - I must be messing something up - not doing enough to get close to God. But looking at it objectively, I have been diligent about my quiet time. I have been listening to sermons on my ipod (2 today!) Almost all of the music I've been listening to is worship. So my head says, check, check, check. Done plenty. I must be imagining this slight noise.
But the Holy Spirit inside me says keep digging!
"How foolish can you be? After starting your Christian lives in the Spirit, why are you now trying to become perfect by your own human effort?" Gal 3:3
So God, what is it? What do you want me to hear? To learn and know?
I've been praying, please take my heart! Take it out of my hands and wrap me in Your arms! I truly believe that God knows best for my life.
I feel like every Sunday I'm disappointed in myself again. Saying this week I'll do better. Do better with what?? I know there's something there! The todo list is checked off, so it must be something less tangible. Less quanifiable. Somewhere my heart is not making the connection.
God please be clear with me! Yell louder! Lord please don't let me miss this!