Monday, December 3, 2007

credit where credit is due

yesterday at church, I got a check from the Spirit. It seems so obvious now (as hindset tends to, i guess). it's regarding due credit, and pride that prevents that credit from being offered. You see...
Jesus said, "apart from Me, you can do nothing!" John 15:5.

I've accepted praise for so many things in my life, most of which I had obviously nothing to do with. The most obvious/recent one is my reading at Cara's wedding. So many people told me what a great job I did, how lovely my words. and I replied with Thank you. Knowing in my heart that I did nothing. I offered my mouth, and God spoke His words clearly through it. So many other examples. People ask me how things are going with the people around me I am trying to introduce Christ to. And I tell them of milestones and setbacks and questions, etc. My attitude here, though, is pride at what I have accomplished, or guilt about what I have failed to do. However, I have done nothing! Any seeking sparked has been the direct result of God's calling in their hearts. He graciously lets me be part of the plan because He loves me and knows I love them and Him, not at all because He needs me! Even things that the world would say are my accomplishments are nothing without His gifts. I would never have a BS or a master's without the mind He gave me. I did nothing to earn or deserve it - God chose me to give intelligence(friends - you can decide for yourself how much He gave...)
I don't love out of the goodness of my own heart, but because I feel God's endless love for me! I don't serve because I feel like it - it's obvious to me that if I followed my own selfish desires, I'd just watch TV or take a nap. I serve because God asks me to in His word and gives me the push to do so when He wants me too.
I am nothing without Him, and I want to make this more known in my interactions. Not to me - but to HIS name goes the glory. The cool thing is that although I am nothing on my own, I have offered my life to God and it is, "God working in [me], giving [me] the desire and the power to do His good purpose" Phil 2:13 and, as we so famously know, "I can do ALL things through Christ, who gives me strength" Phil 4:13.

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